Not Yet Nevergrave

The body know
before the mind
the world grows narrow
one piece at a time

Hands going numb
vision going black
I know this road
I've come back

But knowing I've crossed it
doesn't mean I know
if the way will still open
the next time I go

So don't mistake
what I've survived
for permission
to take my life

NOT YET
Not here
Not while I have breath

I'll tear through the dark
for what comes next

Bones may break
I may go down
I may crawl

I've died before
I still refuse the fall

I want the noise
I want the heat
I want the ground
alive beneath my feet

Maybe I'll come back
Maybe I won't

You don't get my life

NOT YET

I woke in dirt
I woke in flame
Opened my eyes
with no trace of my name

I watched the wound close
where the blade had been

That's history

It isn't proof

There is no contrac
written under my skin
No god ever promised
I get up again


And if this body's all I get tonight

then every breath
is worth the fight


NOT YET
Not here
Not while I have breath

I'll tear through the dark
for what comes next

Bones may break
I may go down
I may crawl

I've died before —
I still refuse the fall

I want the noise
I want the heat
I want the ground
alive beneath my feet

Maybe I'll come back
Maybe I won't

You don't get my life —

NOT YET

I do not fear
the silence at the end

I fear the hour
when nothing waits ahead

I want the fire
the hunger and the ache
the brutal pulse
of every choice I make

One more dawn
to tear across the sky

One more mistake
before I learn to die

One more impossible
I haven't lived before

You only have me
when I ask for nothing more

But I still hunger

I still endure

I still reach farther
for something more

And while one breath
still answers to my will—

I am not finished

I am here

Still

NOT YET

Not here
Not while my heart can kick

I'll make this broken body
obey me one more time

Bones may break
I may go down
Watch me rise

I've crossed that line before

AND STILL I CHOOSE THIS LIFE

Give me the noise
Give me the heat
Give me the ground
alive beneath my feet

Maybe I'll come back

Maybe I won't

But this life is mine —

AND I AM

NOT

DONE

YET